So....

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Hmmm....so here i begin..new as a blogger...with no idea of what to write...or rather what to blog...i dont know why i created a page in here when i knew i would be left blank...looking at the plain space on the screen which reads TYPE YOUR TEXT HERE...just the way i am always when i need to take any major...or in that case...any decisions in life...i dont know about others, but i get confused about what am i gonna chose when there are options in front of me...and most of the time my choice is random...never thinking the about consequences, never thinking about others related to it and mainly..not even thinking about myself...its something that comes from inside me...i guess somewhere inside me there is this person who is afraid of choosing, afraid of decisions, afraid of consequences and everything that the choice is related to. its this fear that makes me choose stuff randomly...because i am afraid that if i take a decision after lots of thinking and analysing (which i am bad at) and in the at last i end up messing it all up for me and for others, it makes me sad..very sad..coz i am one person who has been sad all my life for one reason or the other...and if there are no reasons available, then i make up one unknowingly and i become sad...i dont think there has been at least one continous stretch of 24 hours when i was all happy and never sad...something always comes up to disturb me...and the kind of stupidly sensitive person that i am...i become sad even for the dumbest of things...i cant help it.

Right now, am uncomfortable typing this text..typing is not my thing...i write..holding a pen in hand itself feels good...things flow out of your brain when you write...typing is not like that...atleast not for me...am slow at it...have to search where each of these randomly placed alphabets lie on the keyboard and then press it to type...hard work...and am born lazy...actually i feel that pen, pencil, eraser and your notebook always teaches you something...actually everything that happens around you teaches you something..but only if you look at it that way..like when you are learning to write at very young age you use a pencil...you are bound to make many mistakes...that's how people learn...and you always have a chance to erase it...with an eraser...i feel that at such an age every humans are bound to make mistake...not in writing...but in life...when you are young you do so many mistakes...but you always have a chance to correct them...you can erase your mistakes..theres always a second chance...as you grow up you are given a pen...you are thrilled...everyone likes pen to pencils...but then you know...when you make mistakes....theres no erasing...life's similar..it's all shabby when you make mistakes and you dont ever get a chance to erase anything to correct it...second chances dont always happen..

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